I feel like i've made a terrible mistake at some point, and stepped through a mirror. My worries are abstract - based on the opinions of people across the world, or messages through a phone I can turn off.
I'm almost surprised when something physical and real happens - like 'oh, that's a thing!'
I lie awake in the morning, reading news and email on a phone, I plug in headphones and walk to the train, work on a computer, videoconferencing with people I rarely meet, surrounded by other people, all gazing at their screens.
Sometimes I travel, for ten hours, I look at a different screen, in a smaller chair, to arrive in a hotel. Thank god, as I plug into another screen.
I cook, I talk to my wife, but often we're on our phones.
I studied Digital media technology - using these tools to create. I thought I was so clever - now you can use an Instagram filter, and get better results. So much of my life is abstract, I'm worried that I need to come home, get back to something real.
I daydream about only having a world I can see and touch.
Then I write about it on a cloud-hosted blog. Banal.
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